"The fact that I'm here and so is the love of my life makes me smile." -Mitko Rouynekov (Dimitar)

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When I was young I spoke with a family member. I told her in Bulgarian language.. "when an adult wants to do something romantic it's not difficult to do so at all. Just add the word "new" in front of something material. For example. A new rose."

I took a pause and provided an example.

"A botanist has a girlfriend or lover. He isn't rich yet he knows how to cross a rose plant with another. It takes a few months to grow. Now. This rose may be very affordable yet it took time to make. It's the only bouquet of its type on the whole earth. And that is why it's romantic and makes sense to make."

She smiled.

I paused and said "So we should use our knowledge to do good things."

[She had asked me if I think adults do the same romantic gestures for eachother every generation, to explain.]

The last thing she said after I had said that a botanist doesn't make much money was "More than you think."

I think that she was thinking that someone in many careers would make their usual paycheck but for a few years they could do something great that helps their retirement later. They may make a million or a bit more through it. I replied that I think the only country that would let them have the freedom to do it would be the US.

When I was young my mother and I went to a park. Someone approached her and asked for money. Now. In Bulgaria our paychecks are low, and we are not primitive as a population. But we've adopted a philosophy of strength in numbers. Four men that were sitting with their wife and kids got up and confronted him. During the 90's we would stop crime this way in crowded places.

It's similar to when we were evolving. A tiger would not attack a flock of elephants because there's strength in numbers and it would lose. Many countries have kept that and Bulgaria is very intelligent. If just one person loses their money for the day or their purse -that affects their ability to work the next work day. And everyone's paycheck is taxed which goes towards pensions for our grandparents; our elderly. So we did this for years (I don't know how things are now hopefully the same) and it kept the economy in good shape for our standards. I made this hypothesis from what happened along with seeing the same thing happen to another woman while I was walking through the park during daytime. Kids would go out by ourselves during the weekends because it was full of people who are ready to prevent problems.

I have to say something. The last part of my song which skandau made official may be true. "My thoughts are murky." For each person causing problems in a country there are at least one hundred normal citizens doing what they got to do at work or in school and throughout the day. That there's hope.

As I'm aware I'm on a fake internet and people may make fun of me for this post however in the case news is accurate: I think President Trump is a genius for removing the penny from circulation.

To explain: When people buy things they can estimate cost, but they can't estimate it down to the penny, and then people think bad things or look at you in a strange way.

A couple of months ago before a Walgreens closed I brought sweets from there. The price was six dollars and sixty six cents after tax (It's in my receipts though I was not using electronic receipts at the time.) So you see: President Trump is a genius. Because all prices are rounded up.

I recently had a thought. When I used to smoke or use a vaporizer on my balcony, now with cannabis being legalized: While I use tobacco in mild amounts sometimes someone would walk by on the street and smoke cannabis. The smell got everywhere including my balcony. Afterwards people would look at me on the balcony while walking by.

I write this to provide an explanation. That I should not be blamed for this because I'm against drugs and I don't use cannabis.

I think it's in the gray area. People say it's legal yet the people who use it generally have problems. So. To all of you who own an apartment or house: Don't smoke on the balcony if you use tobacco. I don't think people should use tobacco either but I felt that I have to write this to prevent problems.

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When I was young similar to many people I thought opportunity meant: to make large amounts of money. And I guess I have to ask this to everyone reading: How many of you have thought in the past that opportunity meant money?

When I was in High School I remembered something that changed my view about it. I've remembered the same memory recently and wrote about it. It's a happy memory and it changed the way I think. So I've decided to share it here.

Opportunity means for example: If you're a guy who wants to have a short beard and mustache and ridiculously long hair -you have the right to do that. You can work in a career that you choose not that someone else chooses for you. You have the right to choose the person you want to talk to, a specific woman for me among other people. You can buy the food and drink you want to. I guess it could be called: That you can make a life for yourself. The kind of life that you want to live.

Back then I spoke with my history professor and he asked the whole class a question. "How many people think opportunity only means money?" The class didn't say anything.

I can explain the memory I remembered from my childhood while keeping it private. My dad had work in manhattan and I came along. There was a beautiful woman there. She isn't rich or famous but I liked her and because of this I was able to use my fast reflexes to move back during the time a car had crossed a red light. So I guess she saved me. She has success here even though she might not have a lot of money. And I fell in love. With her. This is going to seem strange without thinking a bit. After the car passed the other streetlight was about to turn red and I was short, because I was young, so I ran across while it still said "walk" in green letters. So she actually saved my life twice in one day. Cars passing by can see a person but a child is not tall. They were filming in this area for a music video, a much less popular one. She was sitting in a chair. A noise I made from panic is actually recorded in it which may have ruined the end of the music video or changed it but I guess this story could be told to explain it. She's from Canada. This is actually why I drew a woman as an angel in my book: The man in me, a Memoir by Mitko Rouynekov. Halo and everything.

Aside from that. I don't think there's a problem with me writing this. People who have a diagnosis or a label should be allowed to write about the same exact things as people that don't. -I shouldn't be harmed or illegally imprisoned in a hospital for this. Use common sense. There is absolutely nothing wrong with what I've written and that means someone does not have the right to say there is based on law.

There are so many good things on earth. The earth isn't a place of torture. As for myself I don't have much experience with the world but I'm honest.

P.S. I have a bit more to say. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It could be a taxi driver. Or a woman working watering plants at the botanical gardens. Or an Engineer. I had not heard her music. I've listened to it later, which I guess makes it so you can know more about the person because of what they say.

Post-Post Scriptum: As for my internet. She doesn't have many songs or albums. But she's a great person. (One of her songs teaches self esteem just like this post does.)

Final Post Scriptum: I guess history repeats itself. Prince sang it long ago. "You don't have to be a movie star."

When I was young in HS I had a tooth infection and I have to put something in addition to this. During my life my parents have helped me solve various specific problems and I asked my mother after she said to rinse with saltwater: "Ot kade znaesh kak da opravish tolkova mnogo problemi?" [How do you know how to solve so many problems?]

I guess I could say that maybe if you want to be a parent in time it would be good to buy a few books, from my memory, of things that are everyday remedies for different things if you want to impress your children.

In all honesty before the saltwater rinse the only thing I thought would help out the infection was baking soda with water or rinsing with alcohol without drinking it. I never even thought to use saltwater.

It could be just a few books that discuss a variety of things. How to fix a sink. How to unclog a faucet (Which she had told me is done by pouring very hot water that you boil down the sink as metal expands and helps ease the clog if you don't have drain cleaner at home or something else you could use.)

Overall it was a good memory. I know it seems plain but the purpose or reasoning is in it.

P.S. A while later while we were renting our sink broke. The pipes detached from the handles. I looked up a video on youtube and repaired it myself. I laid down underneath with a pillow on my back so I would be comfy while doing that and put a bucket next to me to hold water so I don't have to ask the landlord to turn off the water valves in the basement.

So you see: Parents and instructional videos have uses. It's great that people make this content on the internet. Even if you forget how to do it later on you can look up the same or similar video and do it again.

I had told her that she saved 150 dollars at the time for the cost of a handyman and asked for five dollars which I used to buy a sandwich from the deli nearby.

It's a waste of time and it wastes money. Smoking- It's stupid.

P.S. I threw away my vaporizer.

P.P.S. No one should be smoking.

Hello everyone. I have a small problem with my ears which I went to my general doctor for. I will be seeing an Ear nose and throat doctor soon for it.