When I was a child, after my father hit me, I was able to think in both directions, before years later I lost my ability to create from pain.

We had a discussion.

I told him that I wanted to make an animation where there is a strange world that does not follow all the laws of physics.

A girl sits on a chair, similar to an animation titled Chaos Head, The girl from the Fes group in the animation.

There is a large clock above it. Somehow there is an ocean in it, although it is much smaller than this amount of water.

Three arrows. Hours, minutes and seconds. In full synchronization with the arrow, a drop of water falls on her head in seconds.

Eventually, she loses her mind.

We discussed conflict afterwards so that I could explain the reason for it. I asked him which war was worse. The first or second world war.

We stopped and talked about the past. I told him, "I guess monkeys were throwing soft rotten bananas at eachother."

He said, "I don't think I'll ever beat you again."

When we are hit, even though we lose intelligence, we become better at preventing pain and problems. The brain isa healthy organ and mine still worked for years.

Kiana, or maybe it's someone else. I had told my parents that they would never be late for work. By moving the clock half an hour or a little more. I guess it would be possible with a digital clock that changes itself for daylight saving time. Later, this type of clock was made and my mother was never late for work, except for a few times due to problems with the train.

I gues if you find out that you arrived at work an hour and a half earlier, you can even watch a movie to cheer up and have a better performance for the day. Time will pass faster for you. Because you started your day with relaxation instead of something that tires you out for the day. (daylight saving time)

We can't gain time without wasting time. You will go home and feel tired, then fall asleep earlier.

When I was a child in New York, my parents turned the clock forward, so I came to school early. Another girl's parents did the same. We were the only ones there and we met. I brought her a pack of welches fruit snacks from the vending machine and a carbonated drink, coca cola. We talked. I only knew Bulgarian, but she understood me. For my age, I was strong. I helped her open the fruit snacks, and she opened the soda.

We were happy because we had something that few people who are young have. The right to speak without being hit.

She had purple hair. She even kissed me.

And because people are hit [my personal theory], this is the reason why there is inflation. People consume a lot and can't produce as much, I don't mean the quantity.

We had an idea for a joke and turned all the desks over and put chairs on the other side of them. The students entered shortly afterward and sat down. Our teacher came in and saw that everyone was sitting with their backs to her. It was fun. She went to the other end of the room and told us to turn the desks over, so we did.

I don't know if many people can agree with this speech. Still, prices are getting bigger. I saw her when I was a teenager again. She had four bodyguards with her, therefore, because she was not hit and we could speak to eachother - She is a multimillionaire.

Unfortunately, I can't work because my life was much worse, but she made me smile.

Before that, I had heard a song while I was in my mother's womb, which my father hit me for after.

I spoke with my aunt in our kitchen.

"Now I'm going to write the worst song in history, but it works perfectly in english. When I'm too strong and I'm afraid."

What is true strength? Size? No... everyone would be upset. True strength is the ability to make a good life for yourself and even marry someone you met during your youth because you haven't gone through so many of life's struggles and have made a strong connection with someone before them. Pain can't remove that connection

Kiana. I don't know exactly what will happen when I die of old age, but in case I turned into a Devil from pain and lack of justice and lack of good memories: Thank you for making me just a little bit weaker.

Besides, someone has come up with something horrible about gummy bears. That they're made of animal bones, which is a lie. They are made of gelatin, which is actually made of sugar.

Post scriptum.

I don't know if anyone will agree with me, but in years to come you may understand the speech. The rent of an apartment in New York is currently about 2000 per month, and your salary should be at least 40 times the cost of rent. If people continue to be harmed this way -the economy will collapse.

Because I could think in both ways, I had spoken with my mother in the past. She read from a book. "The economy collapsed -they stopped being hit." I answered her in the most skeptical way possible. "The economy improved -they continued being hit."

Copyright C. Mitko Rouynekov 6/14/2024

When I was young before I came to the US I met a person near our building. I don't know why I said it. There must be some reason. I told him "Ne znam koia e tovoita religia no bok iskam mnogo ot tep" [I don't know what religion you are but God wants a lot from you.]

He said nothing and just stood there. I walked back to our apartment building and went up the steps after and came home.

https://www.deviantart.com/belthagoros/art/Where-does-the-time-go-A-Combination-of-Paintings-1059734809

The US has freedom of creative expression through artwork. I don't think someone should be illegally imprisoned for expressing themselves or harmed. It doesn't make sense to me for people to do so.

When we read, or hear, or look at paintings, we learn. We become more well refined people through them. We're able to think outside the confines of our own knowledge, because we have more of other people's ideas in our mind. When people work in a group we can accomplish so much more than when we work by ourselves.

Kiana. I miss you.

When I was young, still in Bulgaria, my father asked me something.

"Mislish li che nyakoi haresva da slusha musica ftori put?" [Do you think a person likes listening to [A song] a second time.

I was very young and I replied to him "Mojebi ako ima machina koiato mozhe da poftori pesentat za da smetnesh vreme. Pizza vsima triset minuti za da e gotova. Mojej da igraesh edna pesen koiato e tri minuti dulga decet puti -pizzata e gotova kato nyamash rabota vuv subota."

Maybe if there's a machine that can repeat a song so that you can calculate [measure] the time [that it takes to do something] Pizza takes 30 minutes to cook. You can play a song that is 3 minutes long ten times [on loop] -The pizza is done when you don't have work to do on a saturday.

He told me "Ne bi povyarval vuv kakfo si prevernal musica."

You wouldn't believe what you've turned music into.

I would like to remind everyone that keeping someone in a loop is against human rights. #Beards

About my previous post which I deleted.

I have to say that my grammar isn't perfect, so you have my apologies for that.

P.S. I wouldn't say there were a problem if there's no problem at all because you're wasting people's time and money.

Before I write this I have to put a disclaimer.

I've been through pain and loneliness for a long time. It's possible I may not even be able to see or hear accurately through technology that helps me to do so. The music I think is fairly accurate, live conversations might not be, but I thought I would type this to the best of my ability. I don't really know what the rest of you might be reading if you even see it.

When I was 3 I spoke with my father. I asked him if the food we eat builds us better for different careers. Which country has the best Engineers? What do most of them eat during their lives? Which country has the best Doctors? What do most of them eat during their lives?

We already know what foods help build muscle, for a bodybuilder, or someone working in construction. We don't know what food makes a person a good engineer or doctor.

I thought about it and told him that we could ask people in Bulgaria. However some of them may lie. I asked him if they use something to buy food that has a list. "Credit and Debit cards." I smiled at a thought I had in me.

I'd imagine hundreds of years from now we could study this. Whether in a democracy or any other system we could have people working that are better at their job, because they ate the best food choices for what they want to do as adult during both their childhood and later on.

I'm losing my hair. I know one thing though. Fruit, which unfortunately I got hit for as a child, is the best food for hair growth.

P.S. It's also possible that I can see perfectly well. I gave Amundi Group an idea on eye movement technology. I'm going to try to write a word twice just by hand coordination. Tomato Tomato

P.P.S. I could expand on this by saying that maybe it also has to do not just with a particular food but a combination of foods in a dish. The way the group of foods digests together in the body when eaten in one meal.

P.P.P.S.

My father asked me after which country I think it is. I answered in a simple way. The US, because it can grow a very large amount of food, so most people who are working have enough of the right foods for their brain and body, even if they're eating many of the wrong ones.

Due to a damaged nerve in my ear I hear my own speech poorly. I can't have a conversation and I need better technology. Unfortunately there is none that exists.

Before I met Kiana, I met another girl. She also had purple hair. Previously, for some reason maybe it noticed that I was in pain, we had a mouse in our apartment. It brought me a ring that it took from somewhere. I don't know who it belongs to, but I put it in my pocket. The internet says that rats are voracious, this is not true, mice are. And yet I very much dislike this, because they take things away from someone else. Anyway I met her in the same exact place that I met Kiana, on the sidewalk past the streetlight going home from my first school. I had this.. thing in my apartment, which was like a necklace with miniature spheres on it and a button. I had put the ring around it. I tried to put the necklace on her, by raising it in front of her, with the platinum diamond ring, the diameter which would fit a very young girl and she took a few steps back. I didn't really like her in all honesty, but I thought about it and I opened the necklace and dropped the ring on the ground, then put the necklace in my pocket.

I guess I tried to show her a symbol. Much later on Justin Bieber wrote a song "as long as you love me I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold."

In even more honesty, even though we didn't say a single word to eachother. I tried to show her something similar through our eyes, because I had strong eyes and I think so did she by dropping the ring in front of me and standing in front of her. She left. Unfortunately I think as she's an adult now she probably picked jewelry.

I have a personal feeling towards earrings. That they're a problem, because the woman piercing her ears goes through pain in order to do so. And yet almost all women on earth have pierced their ears. I guess I could say I would have thrown earrings on the ground as well. Maslow wrote that we need absence of pain for our survival so I have to ask all the young women in the world, various ages "Why do you do this to yourself?"

I think an adult woman looks better without wearing jewelry because you can see more of her. Maybe earrings affect her hearing ability because her ears went through pain? I don't know and this post might be censored but if I can change at least a few people reading it in the world I've made a difference. I never saw her again by the way. I guess I wanted to do something nice for her at first but I realized that I'm a pure person and I shouldn't give a girl a ring that was taken from someone else.

Through the mouse' sin I tried to remove the desire of money towards her.

That mouse left our apartment before that, I think because mice aren't hit so their weak brains develop some strength and the only words I told it is "There is no food for you here please leave." After that there were absolutely no mice in our apartment or our building.

Later on we had rats which are very annoying things, there were very few of them though.

I don't know if mice have a soul but because of what we did as a team I think that that mouse may be in heaven looking at a huge cheese wheel. It also may be in hell yet not being tortured while looking at an equally large cheese wheel.

I guess if I could put a moral to this even though it would be a very strange one it's that sometimes the mistake of an animal can become something that leads to a right path? As cliche as it is everything happens for a reason. I don't know. I have no idea. But it should be noted that I didn't like her. And I fell in love with Kiana whom I need now that I'm older. I forgot about meeting her for years because I was hit by my father but I remembered her somewhere around the end of high school and went to a twitch convention. I saw her rush out to see me but I was far away. My mother pulled me away from her. She wrote a few songs and she's popular but I think based on the lyrics that she thinks I don't like her. I called myself Casper when I met her because I thought everyone would forget me. I wish I could see her again without anyone pulling me away or causing harm or problems. At one point, though I had forgotten her name, Kiana, I actually knelt in front of a cross in our auditorium in school during lunchtime a couple of times. I was asking to be with her when I'm an adult. To have her and to spend time with her. The cross fell. But I can say with courage that I'm not going to stop asking God for this even if every cross in the world falls. Some people say that Religion says not to turn God into a symbol. Maybe he doesn't want people to wear a cross. We discussed it in Bible class.

Post Scriptum.

I made a new piano song.