Before I met Kiana, I met another girl. She also had purple hair. Previously, for some reason maybe it noticed that I was in pain, we had a mouse in our apartment. It brought me a ring that it took from somewhere. I don't know who it belongs to, but I put it in my pocket. The internet says that rats are voracious, this is not true, mice are. And yet I very much dislike this, because they take things away from someone else. Anyway I met her in the same exact place that I met Kiana, on the sidewalk past the streetlight going home from my first school. I had this.. thing in my apartment, which was like a necklace with miniature spheres on it and a button. I had put the ring around it. I tried to put the necklace on her, by raising it in front of her, with the platinum diamond ring, the diameter which would fit a very young girl and she took a few steps back. I didn't really like her in all honesty, but I thought about it and I opened the necklace and dropped the ring on the ground, then put the necklace in my pocket.

I guess I tried to show her a symbol. Much later on Justin Bieber wrote a song "as long as you love me I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold."

In even more honesty, even though we didn't say a single word to eachother. I tried to show her something similar through our eyes, because I had strong eyes and I think so did she by dropping the ring in front of me and standing in front of her. She left. Unfortunately I think as she's an adult now she probably picked jewelry.

I have a personal feeling towards earrings. That they're a problem, because the woman piercing her ears goes through pain in order to do so. And yet almost all women on earth have pierced their ears. I guess I could say I would have thrown earrings on the ground as well. Maslow wrote that we need absence of pain for our survival so I have to ask all the young women in the world, various ages "Why do you do this to yourself?"

I think an adult woman looks better without wearing jewelry because you can see more of her. Maybe earrings affect her hearing ability because her ears went through pain? I don't know and this post might be censored but if I can change at least a few people reading it in the world I've made a difference. I never saw her again by the way. I guess I wanted to do something nice for her at first but I realized that I'm a pure person and I shouldn't give a girl a ring that was taken from someone else.

Through the mouse' sin I tried to remove the desire of money towards her.

That mouse left our apartment before that, I think because mice aren't hit so their weak brains develop some strength and the only words I told it is "There is no food for you here please leave." After that there were absolutely no mice in our apartment or our building.

Later on we had rats which are very annoying things, there were very few of them though.

I don't know if mice have a soul but because of what we did as a team I think that that mouse may be in heaven looking at a huge cheese wheel. It also may be in hell yet not being tortured while looking at an equally large cheese wheel.

I guess if I could put a moral to this even though it would be a very strange one it's that sometimes the mistake of an animal can become something that leads to a right path? As cliche as it is everything happens for a reason. I don't know. I have no idea. But it should be noted that I didn't like her. And I fell in love with Kiana whom I need now that I'm older. I forgot about meeting her for years because I was hit by my father but I remembered her somewhere around the end of high school and went to a twitch convention. I saw her rush out to see me but I was far away. My mother pulled me away from her. She wrote a few songs and she's popular but I think based on the lyrics that she thinks I don't like her. I called myself Casper when I met her because I thought everyone would forget me. I wish I could see her again without anyone pulling me away or causing harm or problems. At one point, though I had forgotten her name, Kiana, I actually knelt in front of a cross in our auditorium in school during lunchtime a couple of times. I was asking to be with her when I'm an adult. To have her and to spend time with her. The cross fell. But I can say with courage that I'm not going to stop asking God for this even if every cross in the world falls. Some people say that Religion says not to turn God into a symbol. Maybe he doesn't want people to wear a cross. We discussed it in Bible class.

Post Scriptum.

I made a new piano song.